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Post by Pat on Dec 29, 2006 9:39:37 GMT -5
I'm so sorry Steff Our prayers are with your family. Pat
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Post by Jessie on Dec 29, 2006 9:56:23 GMT -5
Steff - I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, especially in such an awful, unexpected way.
That's always been our family's biggest fear is getting "the call" that my brother was found dead somewhere because of his lifestyle. I'm so very sad for you and your family.
Will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Jessie
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Post by Cbean on Dec 29, 2006 10:57:57 GMT -5
Prayers going out to you Steff. I'm so sorry for you! Hang in there.
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Post by Cathy on Dec 29, 2006 11:00:10 GMT -5
HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS...
Cathy
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Post by steffipoo on Dec 29, 2006 11:59:18 GMT -5
Thanks you all. I truly appreciate it. It's still all too surreal. We went to his condo last night. My mom dad and my sis and nephew. we listened to his messages just looked around and just smell and take in all our senses cause this was IT. Well.... omg this is so hard to say....he was found on his kitchen floor.how humiliating degrading awful....that makes me so mad don't know why but it does.the morgue looked up my sis in his phone book and called her not knowing she was his sis and said we have him in the morgue. She called me we freaked. I have cried and begged him to please stop got him into a rehab introduced hinm to some friends of mine who got him a sponser with 18 yrs clean and this is the end result.Anyways the only comfort I have had was last night when I was in his condo and found a book I had given him. When I got home I looked up the quote and passage on the date of his death. This is what it said. "We are no longer fighting fear,anger. self-pity, or depression." I know he is free now and thats the only thing that keeps me going. Hes no longer conflicted and in pain. Still it's so hard we were really close and so were my kids. Steff
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Post by updowns on Dec 29, 2006 19:27:43 GMT -5
Oh Steff I am so so sorry and I don't know what else to say - hugs to you and all your family.
Stella
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Post by Deborah on Dec 29, 2006 19:53:22 GMT -5
OMG Steph. I am SO sorry for your loss. I am praying for you and your family
Deborah
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Post by char on Dec 29, 2006 20:42:45 GMT -5
Dear Steff, I'm so very sad to hear about your loss. There is just nothing I could say to make this better. Please know that you are in my prayers. If you need to talk, please send me a PM and I'll gladly give you my phone number. In fact I have a ton of minutes on my cell phone, and I'd be happy to call you. I'm there for you if you need to just vent...whatever you need.
Char
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Post by rickismom on Dec 30, 2006 17:07:02 GMT -5
I also have a close family member currently in remission, and I know the fear. May you have strenth.
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Post by shellk on Dec 30, 2006 17:45:00 GMT -5
Steff,
I truly don't know what to say..When sorry seems so little..Please know that you and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers..
Hugs to you all Michele
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Post by cindylou on Dec 30, 2006 20:17:29 GMT -5
Steff- I can't imagine your pain and the confusion your children must be experiencing. I am so sorry for this terrible loss for your family. I know that you are a close knit family and you will draw upon eachother for comfort and strength... you are loved much here Steff-don't ever forget that- cindy
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Post by steffipoo on Dec 30, 2006 21:37:23 GMT -5
Hi u gals and guys too. I think the world of each of you.My God I learned how to manuever the computer thru you all. And Susan taught me how to cut and paste so easily wish she had been the one to teach me to drive ...LOL I'm cuttin out of here for a while... i need to be away from the techno world and just be... before I leave I wanted to say I will be back no one could drag me from u all.... u know that I am just losing it this is all to hard to take. Olivia just came up to me cause she saw me lose once again. My sweetest Liv can't take to see me sad and cry my God she rushes up 2 me to hug and comfort me. She just came up and put her arm around me and sang...I will comfort you you will comfort me you can count on me I can count on you.and then she is so sweet,rubbing my back, kissing my face and genuinely wanting to do anything to make me laugh or really just stop f***g cryingvaudville, bootty shake dances, jokes.Then I start bawling harder cause she is just so cool and genuine and loving . I am gonna take a break and go lose my mind for a bit or perhaps on a better note regain some sanity here and cut out. I adore you .. steff
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Post by CC on Dec 30, 2006 22:54:28 GMT -5
Steff Steff Steff First and foremost HUGS girl and more HUGS I lost my sis aka best friend unexpectedly quite some time ago, although I lost her to Asthma it was not expected, I am thinking of you TONS girl. Take all the time you need we will be here when you are ready and know we love you CC ~
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Post by meghans_mom on Dec 31, 2006 10:15:39 GMT -5
Steff - I am soooo very sorry to hear about your brother's passing. My thoughts and prayers are with you all. many hugs, laurie
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Post by Jenn on Dec 31, 2006 17:21:01 GMT -5
I am late reading this...but I just wanted to say I am sorry..I know how hard it is to lose a sibling. My sister was taken 3 years ago...and it feels just like yesterday... I miss you and Liv! I wish I lived closer so I could give you a hug and then knab Liv...she is just too cool! Email me anytime!
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