Post by Jodi on Jun 2, 2005 16:58:45 GMT -5
Do you ever get overwhelmed and just lose it? I've been mentally out of it for a couple of weeks now. I've never been like that... usually I bounce back... but this time it's different. Feels like I'm in the middle of the ocean in a sailboat with no wind... just stuck - not moving forward or backward - stuck.
I've been reading some posts and haven't been able to think clearly enough to respond to anything appropriately. I gave a rather grumpy response to "They are such happy people" - or something like that. Hope I didn't offend anyone.
I know it's been a combination of many things - Ryan leaving the campus, starting at a new school, more rumors causing conflicts, etc. Then there are the new things - comments made. For example, our neighbor just had a beautiful little boy. I was visiting yesterday and she received a call from an agency. When she finished, she told me they wanted to know how the baby was doing. They represented the agency that did an amnio and wanted to know if the results were on target. My neighbor said - "I told them, yes, he's perfect... all fingers and toes and no extra chromosomes..." ... is my mouth still open? Anyway, maybe I'm just being overly sensitive because of all the "stuff" going on in my life, but I'm not dealing with such comments very well (or maybe I am - I didn't say anything).
I hate when people single Ryan out because of him having Ds. Am I not at peace? Comments like "My brother has a neighbor that is downs..." "What's it like have a downs", "My cousin is downs" it's like Ryan isn't even a person - just hate that. Maybe I focus on Ryan being accepted by others too much.
Anyhow, someone forwarded an article about a special olympics event wherein 9 contestants lined up to run a race. The gun went off, and 8 of the contestants took off, while the 9th took a bad tumble. The other contestants heard him cry, stopped, and went to him. A girl with Ds kissed they boy's owie and told him that would make it all better. Then the 9 of them locked arms and went around the track together, and finished together. Hearing that story (I sure hope it's true) made me appreciate Ryan even more. Maybe his intellegence level won't allow him to develop hatred and selfishness, and to make STUPID comments.
Thanks for letting me post my thoughts -
Jodi
I've been reading some posts and haven't been able to think clearly enough to respond to anything appropriately. I gave a rather grumpy response to "They are such happy people" - or something like that. Hope I didn't offend anyone.
I know it's been a combination of many things - Ryan leaving the campus, starting at a new school, more rumors causing conflicts, etc. Then there are the new things - comments made. For example, our neighbor just had a beautiful little boy. I was visiting yesterday and she received a call from an agency. When she finished, she told me they wanted to know how the baby was doing. They represented the agency that did an amnio and wanted to know if the results were on target. My neighbor said - "I told them, yes, he's perfect... all fingers and toes and no extra chromosomes..." ... is my mouth still open? Anyway, maybe I'm just being overly sensitive because of all the "stuff" going on in my life, but I'm not dealing with such comments very well (or maybe I am - I didn't say anything).
I hate when people single Ryan out because of him having Ds. Am I not at peace? Comments like "My brother has a neighbor that is downs..." "What's it like have a downs", "My cousin is downs" it's like Ryan isn't even a person - just hate that. Maybe I focus on Ryan being accepted by others too much.
Anyhow, someone forwarded an article about a special olympics event wherein 9 contestants lined up to run a race. The gun went off, and 8 of the contestants took off, while the 9th took a bad tumble. The other contestants heard him cry, stopped, and went to him. A girl with Ds kissed they boy's owie and told him that would make it all better. Then the 9 of them locked arms and went around the track together, and finished together. Hearing that story (I sure hope it's true) made me appreciate Ryan even more. Maybe his intellegence level won't allow him to develop hatred and selfishness, and to make STUPID comments.
Thanks for letting me post my thoughts -
Jodi