Hi it's me, thanks for caring

[faithhope]

Hi everyone, I just can't believe how caring everyone is here. I feel like I am with my sisters and brothers. I am doing much better these days, I seem to have transitioned to a point of constantly worrying and dwelling on the Ds to now now wanting to think of it at all and just concentrating on Noah. I want to see NOah for Noah to just see him as a baby, not Ds, to enjoy every thing he does. He has just the best smile. He really looks at us and seems to know so much. He looks so wise in his eyes.
I have been trying to catch up reading eveyones posts, and personal messages to me, and there is just too much.
I really wish I could spend the whole day writing.
It seems like there has been a lot of drama for people lately.
As I was reading all the sad news I really started to feel depressed and just couldn't read anymore. I feel so bad that anyone has to go through all the medical issues with their children, and it makes me worry all over again for the future. Also reading about the terrorists using Ds people, that is so disgusting, and just made me think, yes my child is going to be vulnerable to hate and madness from people.
So I had to stop reading, I hate going back to thinking about Noah always, so I may not always be able to read some things, just not yet, I still want to be in my little happy world, where everything seems to be just fine with Noah, no health issues and he is just a regular baby, for now.
My love and prayers are with you all!!!!! I truly am praying the best for everyone, for strength, guidance, wisdom and health. Most of all for happy, loving and united families.
Love,
Jessika

[Jessie]

SOOOOOO happy you posted!!!! Just reading that post, it sounds like you've already taken some baby steps from where you were a couple of weeks ago.

Nothing wrong with only reading the happy stuff right now!!!



Jessie

[faithhope]

Thanks Jessie , yes I think I have taken some baby steps in the right direction, and I am glad that you agree there is nothing wrong with just wanting to read the happy stuff for now, though I know I probably will not be able to do that. I will have to peek in on the not so happy ones as well. I guess I have to remind myself that good and bad come with everbody's life not just with Ds, and everybody's life is different.
Love,
Jessika

[momofrussell]

You know, I am glad you are still coming here and continue to be honest with us. I'll be honest with you... WE don't want you to read the bad stuff either right now! BUT... well, as much as you have this new baby and it's all so new and you need the support and strength of others, it would be misguided if all you ever read was happy posts and not the struggles that WE need support with either.

It actually breaks my heart a bit that some of the posts DO make you sad. But I really started thinking about my years on this board, and there are times I don't want to read it either! Along with this board I go to a few others.. and sometimes the sad stuff can overshadow the good stuff... because it's just the timing or whatever. It just is.. and it consumes all of us at times. It's a lot to digest at times even for us "seasoned vets" And I know for me personally, if I am going through a lot at home or feeling down, there are certain posts I just don't want to read. Heck, if I am feeling crabby I don't even read debating type posts! heehee

so...just keep being yourself.. but don't forget to come around and post when you can about yourself and Noah and your husband too of course! You are part of our "family"!!

HUGS!

A.

[Googsmom aka Jennifer]

HI So good to hear you say Noah is just a regular baby. How wonderful See, we all told you that time will make you feel better

[Emilysmom]

Thanks for posting! I'm so glad your trip to San Fransisco was wonderful!!! I agree totally with what everyone else has said...........some posts are sad! And it's totally ok for you to skip those! Spend time just falling more and more in love with little Noah, and come here to brag about his milestones to us.
Just know that we care,
Susan

[Chris too]

I'm glad you're still around, Jessika. It is great to hear that you've found the place in your heart where Noah is Noah first, and then everything else. I do hope you stay around & we can get to read all about him, cheer his accomplishments, support you through the struggles, and especially laugh at all the great stories - like the one Barb shared last night about Alison the chef!