Feeling a bit sad

[danikins]

Okay.....I am having a sad moment.

Dani and I moved into our new town house. I wanted her in a different school district. I should be happy right. It has been over 2 years since her dad left and almost a year ago that we got divorced. He just left, with no communication. He is active in Dani's life and seems to be a very good father. I guess I always thought when I moved--it would be the three of us and room for his two adult children.

I guess I am just going through an emotional time and worrying about how I will pay for it. I will find a way. My ex used the equity in my house to build his business so was left with nothing after 12 years of owning it. It was mine before we married.

My family has been great, but I am so drained by my emotions. However, this is a new beginnning of a new beginning. My ex has been seeing someone for 20 months. Dani is a babe magnet for him but scares gentleman away for me. Maybe I am lonely.

The town house is new, but so many issues already. I don't know what is wrong with me. Maybe it is part of the closure thing. I guess I just need a date...

I guess I needed a cyber shoulder to cry on. Sorry for being a downer---oooo--bad choice of words.

I am going to pick up Dani and she ALWAYS makes me smile and when I say I love you--she says "I love you too, momma. She is the most beautiful precious joy in my life.

Sometimes, it is so lonely and hard to be a single mom with a speical needs gal. However, being a single mom to anyone is hard.

Thanks for letting me cry a bit.

Kim

[Jackie]

Kim...I am so sorry to hear that this has not been a great day for you. You have been through a lot and I think it sounds like you need a bubble bath, a glass of wine, a good steak and a chick flick on tv...and then curl up and snuggle with Dani.

Not sure how you will do all of the above without a sitter...but...where there is a will ...there is a way! If I lived closer, I would come be the sitter.

Keep us posted on how its all going...please.

Thinking of you

Jackie

[Googsmom aka Jennifer]

{{{{{KIM}}}}} There is a hug just for you. It will get better!! Really Time heals all wounds and worries but sometimes one wishes the time waiting was shorter. {{{{{{MORE HUGS}}}}}}}

[damarasmom]

Kim,
I am so sorry you are feleing so down. I sure hope your little angel made you smile! Hugs from Texas!

[momofrussell]

I am sad with you. I am sorry you are sad Kim. I am glad you came on here though and are letting it out. We are all here for you... ALL of our shoulders....

HUGS to you.....

A.

[Ericsmomma]

Hugs to you, and from someone who went through a crappy divorce I can tell you, it WILL get better! Just hang in there girl. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

[jelanismom]

*Single mom* here.... *I can relate* !!!!

I SO understand and it's almost like I could have written what you wrote...except Jelani's dad is not active in his life...just a visit now and then in MY home without even playing with him - he sits and watches tv. Can you say !-o-s-e-r???

I especially know how difficult it is when we're tired...doing it all alone, and just the thought of starting a new relationship isn't as appealing when we're faced with the daily challenges of life combined with the challenges of being a single mom for our child that needs our utmost attention 24/7! I can't relate to divorce, but we were together 10 years and it's been 1 year on our own, me and my little man. And I'm thrilled to pieces to have our independence, but it gets lonely at times. But life is a happier place now! Good thing, because I don't need emotional turmoil spoiling the precious time with my son...
It's hard not to feel stressed, esp. when having to deal with finances alone. I don't know where you live, but I'll pm you with some links to a few agencies that have helped me, that I qualified for as a single parent to a special needs child.

Here's a ((hug)) and another ((hug)). I'm a little philosophical sometimes...so here's what I think...if you are sad, that's not so bad...because it's a way of shedding the unecessary and getting to the core of ourselves, like clearing out the bad vibes and tuning in on what we really need, to sustain our happiness. You're doing the best job you can, and nobody could do what you're doing (except me and a couple others )
It's a new start and a great time, all the best to you two. And like A~ said, we're all here for you. (I sorta got spoiled by Uno a long time ago!!)

Oh and I haven't checked this out yet, but I might....

groups.yahoo.com/group/SingleDSparents/?v=1&t=search&ch=web&pub=groups&sec=group&slk=2

Dawn
and anytime you feel this way just send me a line.

[CC]

HUGS sent to you from New Jersey

CC ~

[steffaroni]

that sucks Kim I am sorry.Especially hearing this was YOUR house to begin with. Makes me mad for you. I usta feel like a single mom when my husband was out of town so much months at a time but I knew he was coming back. Time to build you both a new fresh life. Think of it as a new beginning. Glad at least your family is so very supportive.(((HUGS))) Steff

[Emilysmom]

Kim,
We'll be happy to be your cyber shoulders! Please know you can vent here or ask for support at any time. I'm sorry you're feeling sad..........I think I'd be feeling a bit angry about the house/equity situation; considering it was yours before you married! I'm SO glad that Dani's dad is still staying close to her. So often, that's not the case and that's just tragic.

Susan

[advocate4myself]

Kim, it must be awful for you. I am sorry. You can always vent on here. That is what is so great about this place. Everyone is accepting and understanding..........Debbie