Post by Googsmom aka Jennifer on Mar 27, 2011 10:51:01 GMT -5
Ok guys, I have a trouble and i'm hoping someone here can give me some advise as you all know the situation here best.
So when I started school and Brook would be w/ Dad all day I kinda went panic about it. Luckly, there is Zoloft and I explained to my teachers the situation here at the house and they let me keep my cell phone in my pocket on vibrate all day .."just in case"... he needed to call me. My Mom actually took a month off work to be my "spy" and "just pop in to say Hi" alot LOL
Next round of school isn't as long so now it will be my sisters turn to take vacation at her work and be the "spy". I just don't want him to know i'm sooooo scared to death to leave Brook with him all day. Ya know, at any given moment he could drop over and poor Brook would be left here alone for however long it took for someone to stop over. Scares me to death!!
Plus summer time is coming up and now, like every summer time, he is starting to talk about taking Brook to swim and fish and play at the park etc.... PANIC!!! So far i've managed to make something else come up on days he wants/ thinks he's going to try and do something outdoorsey. Sneeky like that LOL But just him mentioning something like this sets me into a full blown panic attack. All the "what if's" just start pouring into my head and sometimes I can't get them to stop and it will literally make me puke I hate it!!
If you've read this far, thanks. I just have no clue how to not panic about this stuff and in the same breath not to tell him my concerns about the thing he wants to do. I have told him of my concerns before and his responce is always "I'd never let something happen to Brook" That much I know but he is not thinking about what if he drops over dead, like at the river fishing, and Brook decides to go for a swim, etc.....
So when I started school and Brook would be w/ Dad all day I kinda went panic about it. Luckly, there is Zoloft and I explained to my teachers the situation here at the house and they let me keep my cell phone in my pocket on vibrate all day .."just in case"... he needed to call me. My Mom actually took a month off work to be my "spy" and "just pop in to say Hi" alot LOL
Next round of school isn't as long so now it will be my sisters turn to take vacation at her work and be the "spy". I just don't want him to know i'm sooooo scared to death to leave Brook with him all day. Ya know, at any given moment he could drop over and poor Brook would be left here alone for however long it took for someone to stop over. Scares me to death!!
Plus summer time is coming up and now, like every summer time, he is starting to talk about taking Brook to swim and fish and play at the park etc.... PANIC!!! So far i've managed to make something else come up on days he wants/ thinks he's going to try and do something outdoorsey. Sneeky like that LOL But just him mentioning something like this sets me into a full blown panic attack. All the "what if's" just start pouring into my head and sometimes I can't get them to stop and it will literally make me puke I hate it!!
If you've read this far, thanks. I just have no clue how to not panic about this stuff and in the same breath not to tell him my concerns about the thing he wants to do. I have told him of my concerns before and his responce is always "I'd never let something happen to Brook" That much I know but he is not thinking about what if he drops over dead, like at the river fishing, and Brook decides to go for a swim, etc.....